The best part about running as a recreational sport is that it is inclusive. That probably explains its popularity the world over. Anybody can run, it’s that simple. And the more runners I meet, I realise how therapeutic it is and how it forces you to take note of yourself. For me, it was as if I connected with myself for the first time when I started running. Even pregnancy had failed to do that for me. However, nowadays it also comes with a lot of noise and commotion. There is pressure of what races are you signing up for, your finish time, how much you are running in a week etc. It feels good initially as a new runner but slowly the pressure builds up. Of course, it’s great if you want to improve continuously and important to strength train to remain injury free but it’s not ok to constantly compare yourself with others. Continue Reading
I agreed to get a pet after years of being coaxed by my son. The idea of buying a pet never occurred to me. I knew I had to adopt one specially after seeing a friend’s sister who had adopted a pup. And like my son says getting a kitten has been one of the best decisions I have ever made. He’s so right. We don’t have experience of any other pet but with some insights from my son, I wanted to share why cats are simply awesome.
1) The biggest difference I have seen in the last 3 months in my house is that we are all much calmer than we used to be. Playing and cuddling with Leo releases a lot of stress. In fact, I find myself petting him more often whenever I’m anxious. Continue Reading
As I turn 36, if there is one thing I want to share with everyone it would be how I have made it a habit to constantly love myself in the last two years. Even though I’m not a life coach and I’m also aware that there can not be any one way to love yourself, I can still share my experiences. Also, I say practice “loving myself”, because it doesn’t come naturally to me. If you’ve spent most of your life in self doubt and with low self esteem like I did, then I truly believe that you will have to make a conscious effort to love yourself every single day. Sometimes, I succeed and sometimes I fail miserably.
But what has changed since I started loving myself? The answer is practically everything. The relationships that I really care about improved, I learned to detach myself to a large extent from things and people who don’t matter. I found myself believing in my gut feel and following it. Now I understand, love more and hate less. I trust myself more and fear less. I’m more calm and manage my anger much better. I find it easier to let go of unimportant things. And I finally got the courage to be vulnerable and authentic. Continue Reading
They say grief is resilient. And it comes at the strangest of moments and you are reminded of it with the strangest of things. A few days back, I woke up to drink water around 2 am and a hair pin kept on the side table reminded me of my mom. As I laid down on the bed, I started crying silently. Leo my 3.5-month-old kitten was sleeping in one corner of my bed and had been giving me a lot of attitude through the day. However, as I lay there crying in the dark, I felt her fur on my arm. She came close to me and felt my hand with her paws. Then she rested a part of her body on it. It felt like a hand of a person who really cares about me, on my head. Very reassuring. After about 15 mins or so she lifted her body but slept close to me through the night. I almost thought I’m imagining things as how can this tiny little being be so sensitive. And everyone had told me cats are selfish. But it happened again and again as last few days have been tough for me. May be we don’t understand their way of expressing love.
Leo is teaching me more ways to love. She’s teaching me to be more receptive to love.
I haven’t slowed down since my mom’s death in October last year. Maybe it was my way of coping with the loss. So, when this project to visit McLeodgunj came my way (yes on good days, bloggers get to do this too), I was apprehensive. Mountains force you to slow down, they make you feel small and remind you of how unimportant you are, I wasn’t sure if I was ready to be with myself yet. What’s worse is that it had been years since I took a bus for a long journey and did a backpacking kind of a trip. But I’m glad I went ahead with it because, even though I didn’t realize it, it was time for me to slow down. I will try to give out all the details of the journey and at the end of it some pointers as well and loads and loads of pictures.