When I decided to not run New Delhi Marathon due to many commitments and lack of training, I was under the impression that I was able to take this decision because I had reached a zen mode of sorts. This was the first time I woke up at 4 am to not run, to not volunteer but just be there. But to my surprise, I wasn’t calm as I started seeing runners with happy faces at the finish line trickling in but, despite that, those couple of hours spent standing at the finish line of the stadium were worth it. I got to see what it feels like to be on the other side and reflect on it.
Got to see elites up close – I got to see so many elite runners finishing their run up close for the first time. While we live in our own bubble of amateur running, it’s beautiful to see these athletes put in all their strength and energy into the race. I thought of making videos of them finishing but I wanted to savor the moment through my eyes and not through the camera.
It wasn’t about me – Usually, one is overwhelmed with their own run to really be able to feel the other runner’s happiness on finishing their run. Since I didn’t run, I wasn’t tired or distracted and this is probably the first time I could truly see, feel and share the excitement/disappointment and listen to every word others had to say about the run.
Let go – It was also a big lesson on letting go. I realised I had started sulking and was irritated with myself for not running. The weather and route was perfect for a good run so it made things even worse for me. But after a while, ranting and couple (actually a lot) of deep breaths, I decided to let go, it’s not the end of the world. It’s just a run and there will be more.
‘Timely’ reminder – While I keep talking and blogging about the fact that running for us is about recreation and overall fitness and not about “kitne me kiya” (I had even written about it!) , I also got carried away. So it was a gentle reminder to myself that I can’t let go of some good runs just because I think I won’t be able to give in my best.
Respect – I have never underestimated the efforts of volunteers in any event. I now have a lot of respect for not only volunteers but the organisers as well. There was a time I thought I was meant to be working with events but now I think I’m happy being a content writer and a blogger 🙂
Have you ever been on the other side?