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An injury is an opportunity

In my article, ‘5 stages of grief’  (read here) I had discussed the emotional turmoil we go through when we are injured. But what if you are out of the running scene for really long? I have been out  practically for the last six months except a few decent 10kms and 5kms.

I have come to believe that an injured runner is like a caged animal. No matter how you might treat it, it will never be truly happy until it is set free.

However, this time around I have not struggled to reach the “acceptance” stage. Of course, it’s everything to do with how I choose to deal with it. I have finally realised that running is life long. It’s a way of life rather than short term obsessive goals.

So here are some of those things that help me and might just be of some use to you:

1) Find another recreational fitness activity – And there are plenty only if we runners are ready to give  it a fair chance. It’s ok to not be out there for everything you choose to do. For me it’s stationary cycling which I find extremely boring but it’s safe and at least it tires me out.

2) Shut off yourself from running whatsapp groups if it’s making you feel miserable. Even though I’m still a part of it, I rarely ever check it. Continue Reading

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Get your brave on

Fitness, Fitness related, For the soul, Parenting - Anupriya kapur - January 2, 2016

When I became a mother 8 years back, it was a validation of my existence. It was as if I got to justify my right to occupy space on this earth in that very moment. And I lost myself in motherhood. The best way to describe it would be that I started “decaying in the gentle state of happiness” (quote borrowed from my favourite book). The only thing was that I wasn’t happy. I was making myself believe that I was. This realisation made me restless and I didn’t know what to do. To a lot of people, my life might have even seemed ideal. But I was being pulled in to a deep dark hole of misery and self pity. And I started finding comfort there. I saw myself as completely worthless once my son started spending more time in school and the park. I became extremely negative and didn’t think I was capable of anything including being a good mother.

Running saved me a lot of times but an injury took that away from me (for a few months) and that’s when I hit rock bottom. I realised that my home baking venture which had started as love for baking turned into waiting for appreciation from others. So when anyone smirked at my idea of baking as a business, it deeply affected me. I had never believed in New Year resolutions till then and was one of those people who make light of it. But two years back on this day, I decided that the only way to save myself was to turn my life around. I didn’t share my resolve with anyone as I was scared of being made fun of. No one took me seriously in any case. I was supposed to be this happy-go-lucky person with whom nothing could ever go wrong and could never be lost. It was a tough call to give up baking. I started meditating at home for 20 minutes on my own every day (Pranic Healing). I used to think meditation is a fancy thing rich people did. I don’t think I have ever been more wrong about anything in my life. I started forgiving people and myself for everything wrong that had happened in the past. I cried a whole lot. But I felt strangely light. It’s tough to describe that feeling unless you go through it yourself. I started looking at myself and situations more objectively, became less critical of myself and prepared to fail.

Around that time, I also started my blog with the hope of inspiring women like me to do something for themselves and to save themselves. The blog got noticed in more than one way and I started getting a bit of content writing work. It is a constant struggle to write when you are low but I didn’t want to give up this time, this was my only chance. I started receiving mails/messages from a lot of people(men and women both) that my blog is inspiring them to take up fitness/running and to revive their passion, which inspired me further to keep at it. I also realised that with so much happening I started to become a more understanding mother. And now all I want for my son is to feel loved and create his own journey.

In 2015, I got a lot of content writing work, I blogged more frequently, took good care of my son, have done several races (injury free!) – 2 full marathons, several half marathons, several 10kms, paced at Bengaluru marathon and my blog got covered in a national daily 🙂

I might not have achieved anything significant but enough to keep me going. At times, I feel a strong pull to go back in to the dark hole and trust me it’s very tempting but I have managed to kick its butt on most occasions and will continue to do so.  But it all started with one resolution on a cold winter evening and some very supportive people.

You might also like https://momontherun.in/a-33-year-old-monk/

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7 things for my 33 years

For the soul - Anupriya kapur - July 3, 2014

7 things I’ve learned in my eventful 33 years –

1. A strong body is key to happiness, and running is the master key. If I was granted a wish to transfer just one learning, but completely, to people I care for most – this is it.

2. “Today you are you! That is truer than true! There is no one alive who is you-er than you!” – Dr Suess

I’m more than my long nose, thin lips, tiger stripes and cellulite. I feel more secure just being me and no longer feel threatened by other women and and its such a comfortable place to be in.

3. I have learned to forgive, bless, and move on. A relationship which saps too much energy out of me or gets too complicated is not worth it. No point investing time and emotions in people who take me for granted. I do not have to impress everybody. Letting them go may seem tough, but when you do, it leaves you feeling ah so light.

4. I feel good when I wear what I like to. I will keep it that way. I’m not certain if people do…but if they do discuss what I wear, then it must be important for them.

5. I should try everything that I feel up to without fear of seeming stupid. Life, in which you can actually do all what you want to, is short. I won’t let opportunities to try my hand at or experience something new just go by. I will grab them instead. Certain things that intimidate me – traveling alone, learning a musical instrument – I will try those too.

6. I’ve finally learned to say no when I know it’s the right answer. I’m so done saying yes just to make people happy. Of course, I’m not done saying yes to make people happy, if that makes me happy.

7. Meditation – I never thought it works. Till not many months ago, I used to think of meditation as a pass time of the complexed wealthy or occupation of the underemployed well offs. And yet I gave it a shot (see Learning # 5) and surprisingly found myself in better control of my reactions and more at peace with my grievances with self.

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